Even wonder what would have happened had some event in your life had been different? In my case, what if my parents hadn't moved here when I was 6? What if they moved to a different state? Would I have married someone totally different? Would I still have become a nurse? What all would be different?
Another thought: Ever look at people you pass and wonder what they are thinking? What is their life like? What do they think of you? In doing patient care sometimes I wonder how I come accross to them, do they see that I care? Do they know that sometimes I cry when their loved ones die? I think of some families even now several years after I cared for them. Do my co-workers know I really mean the stuff when I say how much I enjoy them? Am I always bitchy and whiny (today was bad, I was a bitch)? I mistook a pt's family member the other day, he doesn't know how horrible I felt about it.... my brain is really bad on stuff like that.
I'm overall content with my life, sometimes I wonder, but not to change it as much as to think. Would I change it? A few things yes, but mostly no. I wouldn't be who I am without it (then again, maybe that would be good). Maybe I'm tired and need some sleep.... yep, that is true.
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"..and I took the road less traveled and that has made all the difference." Nice to know someone else thinks about the same things I do. I'm not so sure I want to know what my patients think about me. Can we run those thoughts through a ClearView DVD player and screen out all the unflattering ones?
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